stop blaming yourself for what you thought you didn't give everything... because you will not be hurting too much if you didn't give your best... there will always be a time when you know when to fight and hold on for someone who is worth it... you don't need to lose yourself just to be in his world... because in the end it will be too late already for you to recover... stay strong... till when?! till you still have the pain inside... you should not be weak... you must need to be a good soldier to win your own battle...

defend and win...