// 22 Dec 2016
11:47 |
i remember nights of me crying and wondering how i would live without certain people. i remember screaming and feeling empty and being angry. i wondered how i would ever do without those people... i have spent so much time re wiring my brain, my heart. i used to be co dependent, now i am too independent. now i struggle with not feeling the need to need anyone. sometimes idk what's worse. i feel disconnected on dates, when i talk to people. i feel like i'm waiting for a fire to burn me alive, i feel like i'm going to wait forever. but i will. i will just to burn alive again. just to be melted into the person i used to be...
before my heart was tainted and jaded. |